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Tweak says, "'Hub!"

Martin McFly Poke (great_scott) wrote,
@ 2009-10-12 03:43:00

fourteen.
wrtten early sunday evening.

private --
i may have apologised to brooke, but that doesn't really change where things are. which i'm okay with. most of the time. some of the time. i try to be. i'm forcing myself to be.

because i can't really control the way i react to things. and i don't feel like me.
i've been feeling even less like me ~~all the fucking time~~ lately. i'm this whole other person who starts arguments with anyone who crosses their path on a "good" day, or spends half the day in my bed not caring much if i stay there all day on the "bad" ones.

& i don't like that person. it's not me.

seems it only took nine months for me to lose myself.
/private

i find it so incredibly interesting how the sun rose & set while i was still asleep. okay, so maybe i woke up once or twice but that ~~was to be sick~~ doesn't really count, i think.

i think i'm going to try to get back to that. i'm completely okay with the idea of sunday passing me by ~~as long as it takes this hangover with it~~

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	Marty st_jives 2009-10-12 09:54 am UTC (link)
	You stopped throwing up yet? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	josh great_scott 2009-10-12 04:33 pm UTC (link)
	well, eventually you've got to reach that point where you haven't got anything left. & i know myself better than to try to eat anything, otherwise it'll just come right back up. right now i'm good though. i think. remind me why i thought this was a good idea? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Marty st_jives 2009-10-12 11:42 pm UTC (link)
	Did you ever actually think it was a good idea? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	josh + marty great_scott 2009-10-13 12:27 am UTC (link)
	not really, no. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	pokity 2009-10-12 11:52 am UTC (link)
	you miss an awful lot when you sleep the day away. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	great_scott 2009-10-12 04:35 pm UTC (link)
	that depends on if i had anything to do with the day or not. you'd be surprised how much of my week is made up of free time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pokity 2009-10-12 04:37 pm UTC (link)
	you'd be surprised at what you missed. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	great_scott 2009-10-12 04:39 pm UTC (link)
	& what did i miss? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	marty pokity 2009-10-12 04:52 pm UTC (link)
	i kissed a girl! and i have a date to the dance! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cm great_scott 2009-10-12 04:56 pm UTC (link)
	huh. so i did actually miss something. & this means that i was right, doesn't it? i love it when that happens. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	marty pokity 2009-10-12 04:57 pm UTC (link)
	i told you!! i am so excited!!!! and i don't mind you're being right. especially about this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cm great_scott 2009-10-12 05:01 pm UTC (link)
	do i get to know who the lucky girl is? or is that a heavily guarded secret where i'll have to actually attend the dance to find out? i'm glad i was right. especially about this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	marty pokity 2009-10-12 05:08 pm UTC (link)
	well... i would like you to attend the dance, but i'll tell you because i haven't told anyone and i need to tell someone. it's zara. jordan? i think you met her when she came to the house this summer? me too! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cm great_scott 2009-10-12 05:31 pm UTC (link)
	oooh, i get to be the first person to find out! & i'm glad that you're not going to withhold information to try to get me to go. i think i remember her. but i was trying to avoid the group of girls in the house, so i can't be sure. which one was she? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mary pokity 2009-10-12 05:57 pm UTC (link)
	you do! and i wouldn't do that to you, although i'd still like it if you went. she's ~~on the team with~~ dark skinned, curly curly hair, nice b curves. really pretty but kind of quiet? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cm + marty great_scott 2009-10-12 06:18 pm UTC (link)
	i'll think about it. oh, that one! she's a good pick. she likes girls, too? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cm + marty pokity 2009-10-12 06:22 pm UTC (link)
	apparently so. or at least this girl, anyway. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cm + marty great_scott 2009-10-12 06:50 pm UTC (link)
	she's a very smart girl, even if it's just you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cm + marty pokity 2009-10-12 06:59 pm UTC (link)
	aww thanks. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cm + marty great_scott 2009-10-12 07:13 pm UTC (link)
	i'm required by the league of older brotherhood to compliment you where necessary. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cm + marty pokity 2009-10-12 07:16 pm UTC (link)
	i think it's part of the little sister older brother mutual appreciation contract. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cm + marty great_scott 2009-10-12 07:25 pm UTC (link)
	it probably is, but i didn't actually read it. i'm just a natural. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	cheeringcharms 2009-10-12 12:37 pm UTC (link)
	Hope you're feeling better. Let me know if you need anything. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	great_scott 2009-10-12 04:36 pm UTC (link)
	thanks. & i will. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	cornerstone 2009-10-12 03:26 pm UTC (link)
	Feel better. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	great_scott 2009-10-12 04:37 pm UTC (link)
	thanks, linds. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cornerstone 2009-10-12 06:17 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, of course. How are you doing today? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	great_scott 2009-10-12 06:48 pm UTC (link)
	i'm fine, i guess. ~~are y~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cornerstone 2009-10-12 07:25 pm UTC (link)
	Me too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	great_scott 2009-10-12 09:19 pm UTC (link)
	that's good. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Marty anne_zeller 2009-10-12 05:25 pm UTC (link)
	How are you feeling? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	anne great_scott 2009-10-12 05:33 pm UTC (link)
	like shit. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	anne & marty anne_zeller 2009-10-12 05:40 pm UTC (link)
	Ives should have a hangover potion for you. I got him an extra one in case you needed one. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	anne & marty great_scott 2009-10-12 05:49 pm UTC (link)
	i'll investigate that as soon as the idea of moving doesn't make me dry heave. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Marty puffdragon 2009-10-12 09:10 pm UTC (link)
	I've got something that'll make you feel better if you want it. And no, it's not the same thing that made you feel sick. And I'm sorry you feel like I've been stalking you. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	luke + marty great_scott 2009-10-12 09:24 pm UTC (link)
	shoot down all my hopes, why don't you? is it a hangover potion? according to annie josh has one for me, but i'm thinking it took a lot of work to get myself into a position to write in the journal without feeling nauseous, so i'm not on board with the idea of moving any time soon. nothing to be sorry about. i was being an arse. & slightly paranoid. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	luke + marty puffdragon 2009-10-12 09:56 pm UTC (link)
	That's what I'm here for, to be the killjoy. Yeah, it's a potion - one of the better ones that doesn't taste like dishwashing liquid. Yeah well, you were a bit, but anyway, let's leave it be. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	luke + marty great_scott 2009-10-12 10:30 pm UTC (link)
	you're not that much of a killjoy. not even like a quarter of the time. & i don't know what the one josh has tastes like, but there's a plus in that. i'll take it. yeah. okay. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	luke + marty puffdragon 2009-10-12 10:48 pm UTC (link)
	Okay, I'll be right up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	luke + marty great_scott 2009-10-12 10:58 pm UTC (link)
	thanks. ~~hopefully i won't throw it up~~ (Reply to this) (Parent)